Only idiots will be able to attain happiness in life

This is so true. I gotta stop thinking so much and just enjoy the moments that life offers me as spendid without worrying about the future or other people.

Withering Wondering

It's the kind of day when I wonder if I'll ever get anywhere with my writing. I worked hard on my last chapter of 'Vampire Kiss' and posted a chapter today. Not too many people reviewed even though my hit count was near a hundred after only a few hours. Does that mean that it wasn't a good chapter? I thought it was cool. But it was also over six thousand words. That may be a little bit too much for my audience. Bummer.

I've also been working on a short story. It's a completely different project than the novels I've been working on for the past four years, so I'm a little off balance.

But what? I'm confused. I only ever hear of people who have been writing and their books/stories/articles are rejected because they're not good enough, and yet there are piles and piles of books all over the place with the names of the people who were good enough on the covers. Not only that, but every time I turn around it turns out that a famous author has more than one alias and has been publishing books under three different names. It's discouraging. I'm discouraged.

Project Overflow

So, as 'Vampire Kiss' draws to a close, my brain is chalk full of ideas for new books. And I don't know which one to pursue.

I've got two half-finished novels on my harddrive. One is 'Ghost Mist' and the other is 'Half the Moon'. Both stories are quite well developed, but I have yet to identify a theme for HtM and I have a gap in the storyline in GM. It's frustrating because neither of them are contemporary fiction. I really do better at that. Inventing whole worlds isn't exactly my strong suit. I'm trying to take lessons from D.M. Cornish, but it gets so tiring.

Next problem. I have ideas for two contemporary novels. One is called 'The Third Wish' and the other is called '30 Days to Halloweeen'. Both of these are probably classified as horror. The biggest problem with both of them is that they both need to be told from a male perspective in order to keep the story-telling smooth.

Actually, all four of these books are told from male perspectives. Am I any good at that? Really?

Writing from a female perspective is more natural since I am a woman, but all I've got from a female perspective are two short stories and neither of them is particularly original. I want to write a modern-day 'Cupid and Psyche'. Anyone is welcome to take a whack at that. I love that story. It doesn't matter how many hashed versions spring out of the woodwork - I'm always captivated. The second one is a take on an old fairytale. Oh! So original.

Whatever. I wish I could do what mangaka do and just make up a fantasy world that somewhat resembles Europe without actually being Europe. That would be sweet. I could just make up my own cities.