Five Flames

I know that I am not supposed to write things here that are needlessly negative, but I am having a Calvin and Hobbes moment where I want to be bratty Calvin and write a list of things that really tick me off. Once I write them here, I know my brain will have that much more room in it for other things. So, this is sort of like emptying the trash, or at least I am going to pretend that it is.

Number One - Fish Fins

There is nothing that ticks me off and drives me crazier than getting fish fins stuck in my skin like slivers. I'm not grossed out by getting slivers when they're wood, but for some reason when it's part of a wet dead animal that I'm trying to prepare as food and I'm oddly terrified of the stupid creature on my cutting board - it's enough to send me running to the bathroom for the tweezers and not caring in the least if whatever is in the frying pan burns. I hate it! I hate it! I hate it! My country isn't land locked by any means, but MAN ALIVE! The number of times I've had to deal with dead swimmy animals isn't many and I find the situation so nerve wracking that .... ARGH!

Number Two - Van's Return

So, I released the chapter of Mystic Wings when Van comes back and ... fanfiction.net's review function was down. I was hoping to break records with that chapter, and now the opportunity is gone and it'll never come back. That chapter was SO important. I guess I'm not as pissed off as I am grossly disappointed. Grossly!

Number Three - Being a Woman

Sometimes, I'm cool with the fact that men are built to be absolute work machines while women are not. Well, I'm really not built like that and I'm getting so tired of my body breaking down on me because I'm a woman. I used to think that I was indestructable, but lately I'm thinking that I'll be lucky to see 25. One time, I read a biography of someone written in the late 1800's and they said in a letter that they'd be lucky to see 40. I'll bet his wife thought she would be lucky to reach 30. No wonder women in the old days thought that they needed to have a man look after them - they would!

Number Four - My Latest Project

I started working on one of my more interesting and personally important writing projects and ... I am so unbelieveably tanked about how it's going. I have a whole novel planned out, but I can't figure out how to start it to save my life. I've now written the opening paragraphs three times and I'm still not satisfied. Remember in that ancient movie Throw Mama from the Train, Billy Crystal is trying to figure out how to start his novel and after hours and hours of agony, the only thing he can come up with was, "It was a dark and stormy night"? Yeah, it's like that. If I don't get a better idea soon, I'm gonna have to go work on Mark of a Goddess and I really don't feel like doing that right now.

Number Five - My Apartment

Lately, I've got the bug in my head that I want to move. It's like when you get the idea that you have to cut your hair and you can't relax until you get it done. Yeah, it's exactly like that. My apartment is really small and living in it is sort of a pain in the butt, so I want to move to a place that suits me better, but I can't do anything right away. I found where I want to live, but I have to be on a waiting list, so I'll have to live in my tiny apartment for an unknown amount of time. But even if I do get to move, I'll be moving to a place that has two more floors than what I've got now. I won't have near enough furnature to coming close to filling it. So, will I have to buy more? And if I do, will I end up eventually having to move to a smaller place and then having to give up all this stuff I've accumulated. I friggin hate stuff. But having an empty living area doesn't suit me either.

Life is so inconvenient.